The Wildly Eclectic Me

So I was watching an episode of hoarders (something about watching that show makes me capable of purging junk in my home and it needs it) and there was a very overweight woman who had just given up on cleaning her house. She would go through these spurts of wanting to get it perfect and working all night long and not ever be able to get it nearly clean so she just gave up. It was obvious to me that she was a perfectionist who couldn't get things perfect so she just gave up on her home, which is probably exactly what happened in regard to her body as well. Then I saw a reflection of myself in the tv, because I was sitting on the floor playing with Avi, and it suddenly occurred to me... Holy SHIT! That is me...that's exactly what I've done... Even when I was younger and lost a bunch of weight, I thought I was horrifically fat... There I am when I thought that. I was so not horrifically fat... But since I worked so hard and still didn't feel good about myself, then all t...

Okay, so you may remember that a little over a year ago they tested my thyroid and it came back as not working as well as it should. Then they did another test and said it was within normal ranges on that one so I didn't need any medicine. I then ordered a natural thyroid supplement and started taking it. I started losing weight. I had more energy. My depression disappeared. My short temper disappeared. I started feeling like a human being again. Well as I mentioned before, we're planning on starting trying for number three toward the end of May. So at my annual visit this last Monday I talked to her about the thyroid thing. You see, your thyroid effects your progesterone levels and low progesterone in early pregnancy can cause miscarriage. I had to have my progesterone supplemented with both the boys. So it's entirely possible the miscarriage I had was progesterone related too. So she wanted me to go off of my thyroid and get retested. Then she'll be able ...

I've been working on this for more than a week, and I'm still not sure I've got it right, but I'm just going to publish it and be done with it. Okay, well there is the obvious answer to this question. Because you're hungry. Or is it just because you think you're hungry? Or maybe you're not even hungry, something just compels you to pick up that brownie. I've been overweight for most of my life. There were a few brief periods where I was thinner, but for the most part, I've always had a weight problem. I don't know why I ate the way I did when I was young. It was probably similar to the reasons I've discovered for my eating in my adult life. I was reading The Crazy Woman Inside Me the other day, and got to thinking about the reasons that I eat. I'm a binge eater. I always have been. However, years ago I got it mostly under control. At least in that I don't often eat to the point of making myself physically ill anymore. So fo...

Okay, so my thyroid tests came back normal. There was even like a huge difference in the TSH readings between the first one they took (5.636) and this one (3.599). Those apparently can fluctuate quite a bit though so that is probably why. I'm not 100% convinced, however. I have so many symptoms pointing to that. I think I'm going to get a natural thyroid supplement and try it for a while. I read that they suggest checking your basal body temperature to see how well it's working. That seems smart to me so I'll probably go with that.

So I've always had weight problems. Since I was just a kid. I've been on every diet you can imagine. I was even put on diet pills by my family doctor when I was fifteen. And with diet pills I did lose weight. I've also had symptoms of depression for most of my life. I'd say as far back as at least high school I can remember feeling depressed, but that kind of thing is usually written off in teens as just normal teenage angst. Irritability...Well I think my husband can attest to the fact that I am at times quite easily angered. My hands are almost always cold. I've gotten so used to it that I get surprised when people comment on my cold hands. And I almost always feel cold. Other people can be sweating and I'll want to curl up under a warm blanket. I charted my basal body temperature when I was trying to get pregnant with Nicky. My basal body temperature falls around 96.8 to 97.4. That's a lot lower than most peoples. I miscarried our first baby and ...

http://www.ratemds.com/ Go to this site and rate your doctor. If you love them or hate them, just let people know. No, I don't own stock in the company or anything, but I really don't like my doctor and want a new one. The problem is there is just really no way to know what you're getting when you pick a doctor from a quick spiel on a website that usually only includes where they went to school and how long they've been practicing. They don't let you know things about their bedside manner. Like for instance, that you might walk in wanting help with your weight problem and being ready to do something about it and walk out with tears in your eyes feeling ashamed of yourself. These are the kinds of things I want to know! But very few people actually rate their doctor on this site in my area and I haven't found any other similar resources. If I can convince a few people to do it then I'll be happy. Maybe they'll convince a few others. Wish me luck! I...